An Unwelcome Interruption

An Unwelcome Interruption

Dear Readers: You may have noticed that there was no Red-tailed Hawk Story post last weekend. My deepest apologies – and even more so because there will be no post this weekend either. The truth is that most of you probably know more about what has been happening at the nest the last two weeks […]

Worth

Worth

let’s speak a truth worth its soul or a lie worth its cost like jagged shards let’s tear into my petty, vapid, shallow pride and rage

“Find Me”: Red-shouldered Hawks

“Find Me”: Red-shouldered Hawks

Yesterday I told God, “I don’t know who You are anymore. If You want me to stay in this, You’re going to have to find me.” Well, that doesn’t sound like the words of a seeker, does it? And predictably, years of church teaching rose up in rebellion. I also felt that I should not […]

In the House of Charn

In the House of Charn

Dark side of ambition’s child Won’t stand still and talk awhile Long gone, there’s no more being Ring the bell and start the bleeding This world forbids that we create Nothing done without the hate Lie to me; I’ll lie to you Echoes of what once seemed true Underneath the failing sun There is no […]

Not Traveling Through Eden

Not Traveling Through Eden

The older I get, I seem to become less wise (if I ever was), and less tolerant of foolishness. The irony of that doesn’t escape me. In my mind I’ve constructed a world where everyone does what they are supposed to do, where everyone is diligent and considerate, where you don’t have to hide that […]

A Splash of Color and a Promise: Tale of the Cardinals

A Splash of Color and a Promise: Tale of the Cardinals

“If I…forget all I have learned, it is not so much myself that I feel I will be letting down. It is them. The flies and the bee, the river and red bird…all of them who have worked so hard to open my heart and expand my sight. I never lived inside my own wilderness […]

just stop talking…

just stop talking…

just stop talking it was a thought that had two minutes in the sun i can’t breathe around you here it’s only just begun just stop talking not sure you know love didn’t die today how many words do you need to not know what to say just stop talking it doesn’t change your fear […]

Phoenix Flight Redux (not an RTH Story post)

Phoenix Flight Redux (not an RTH Story post)

phoenix flight shimmer to rain too red for this too grey for pain burning away along fault lines in memories to hold in slivers of time not to be seen once and again turn the corners past hearts that condemn déjà vu lies I’ve never known I’ve never reaped seeds that were sown one true […]

Breaking Through (not an RTH Story post)

Breaking Through (not an RTH Story post)

kings and queens and royal thrones in unrest you stand alone enter into thoughtless night you never meant to lose the light quiet is the silent sound tears that freeze beneath the ground but to love shall kingdoms fall break your heart and find it all a bird in flight, an ocean’s kiss touch another […]

Learning to Change May Not Be What You Think

Learning to Change May Not Be What You Think

Something that really blessed me this week was when a dear friend said, “Just wanted to send a quick hello and a wish for a decent day with some special hugs from nature’s beauty somewhere along the way.” We’re touched by love and beauty in so many ways. Learning to allow that to change us, learning […]

The Community That Sneaked in When You Weren’t Looking

In the age of social media, despite the fact that so many people use Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and other platforms, underneath it all is a skepticism about its value. Those who abstain often say with condescending pride, “I have no time for that nonsense.” And maybe – for them – that works. I am not […]

The Angel from the Fire

The messenger found me in the bitter winter of my exile; she found me frozen into the grotesque layer over my soul, the kind of ever more intransigent imprisonment that feeds on fear, pain, disillusionment, and darkness. Razor sharp shards of once glassy brightness littered the landscape, mercilessly still glittering in the fading light. I […]

Grief on a Timer

Grief on a Timer

Anyone who has seen me on social media recently – Facebook, Twitter, YouTube, Flickr – knows that I lost my darling little girl Sophie on January 30. Grief is possibly the most uncomfortable emotional process in our society. I say “process” deliberately because we would much rather treat it like a singular emotion, like sadness. […]

Welcome to the Red Flower Journal

Welcome to the Red Flower Journal

Red Flower Journal is published by Elly K, transplant from New York to North Carolina, Cornell University alumna, and current employee in RTP’s prolific Clinical Research industry. Red Flower Journal’s content will contain lots of birds, animals, and nature – interspersed with other content. To borrow my line from my Twitter page, “the beauty of birds, […]